There's Life... then thinking of your mortality, and eventual death. Don't really know if I think about death, but I think about mortality seemingly everyday. So what's the difference between death and mortality? Well, death is the absolute end... nothingness, no good, no bad, no love, no pain... Simply the end of everything...absolutely. Thinking of mortality is completely different. There is still life, love, happiness, as well as hopes & dreams. As you get up in years, its obvious that you are closer to the end than the beginning. Health issues, pain, and subsequently chronic pain hasten the thoughts your own mortality. As pain increases your mortality come more and more into your thoughts. The balance of positive still greatly outweighs any negative thoughts. So where does the early thoughts of your mortality take you? And how fast will it take you to the negative side. Myself... not the least bit concerned right now for my wellbeing, but thinking about my mortality almost daily does give me pause... but no concern. Chronic pain, even in the early stages, changes the quality of your life... thus bring on the early thoughts about your mortality. Sometimes writing about thoughts and feelings leads to a greater understanding and increased perspective and awareness of ones self. Right now, I'd just like to control the pain, and better the quality of my life... which by most standards has not significantly been impaired. Hope is for myself and others that may be experiencing the same thoughts. Life is still a life of hopes and dreams... filled with love and happiness...and your mental outlook is your most valuable asset. Faith in yourself to overcome anything negative and remain positive.
