Tuesday, February 5, 2019

TKR = PAIN

I had TKR ... total knee replacement surgery on Wednesday, January 30th. It was 3 years overdue.  Surgeon couldn't believe I was even able to walk, let alone walk as well as I could. Came home on Saturday. This is the worse continuous pain I've ever had. I know I'll be much better off in the end, but right now it horrible. It would be better if with most pain you could sit still to minimize,  but recovery therapy makes the pain relentless. Doctors and  therapists say I'm doing great. I know they are probably right, but still think it's positive hype to motivate. Getting along ok with walker... exercises are brutal. My wife is an Angel taking care of me. Time goes by faster as you get older, but its 10 times slow when in pain and its difficult or impossible to do for yourself. Very detrimental to my upbeat positive demeanor... getting me down. There's limitations on progress which to going much too slow. Someday I'll look back and realize it was all worth it... just hard to imagine right now. Life changing event... better for me physically in the long run... But the emotional toll right now is really taxing. I've heard that some people get both knees done at the same time... Even though I've got a high tolerance for pain, I can not imagine how anyone could do both knees at the same time. The pain is intense and having one good leg to stand on is barely manageable. Doing both at once would be insane. My right knee is done putting all the stress on my left knee/leg. Once I complete recovery from the left knee... I'll get the other one done.  Can't say I'm looking forward to a second surgery,  but in the end it will all be worth it. It's a slow painful process. It consumes my thoughts and my will to do anything else moist of the time. Relentless.