Times being what they are, sleep cycles are completely irregular, and today was no exception. Usually every night is filled with weird dreams. You wake up in the middle of the night and remember everything from the dream, go back to sleep, and the next morning it's at best a faint fleeting memory, then its gone. But stay awake, in the middle of the night and you can recall every detail of the dream. Weeks and weeks of dreams every night not meaning much more than odd places and even more odd situations. Just the other night we were spies in Baja Mexico, like I said strange.
Tonight was no exception. The dream seemed to start as soon as I went to sleep, which for some reason wasn't until after midnight. I was on a cruise ship unaware of a place or time. Enjoying the ship as time and the dream continued. As the dream progressed in vivid detail, I became more aware of not only the place, but the time. The time was April 15th, yeah I know, strange that in my dream it was the same date as today. It's was one of those dreams that everything seemed to be desperate, a fearful frenzy to try to control something in the dream which was completely out of your control. I was on a ship that was going to sink. My frantic efforts to warn of the impending doom go unheeded. Despite all efforts to avert disaster, the inevitable was happening in a desperate horrifying detail. The dream is literally wearing me out both emotionally and physically. You know that kind of dream, where you can't, despite all your efforts, get a peaceful sleep, the dream controls everything. Then you finally fully awake to the point where going back to sleep is not an option. Your heart is racing and you feel emotionally distressed, relieved to not only be awake and out of that dream, but now you need to stay awake to recover from the dream. The ship was sinking, and there was nothing I could do, and I have a unnatural fear of the water and drowning. Not exactly the kind if dream that you could easily forget.
Now fully awake, reflecting and recovering from the dream, I realized that today, April 15th, is not only today's date, but also the date in my dream, which seems very strange. I've never had a dream that was specifically dated. Then it occurs to me, my dream was reliving a date in history. A historical disaster where many lives were lost on a sinking ship. My dream was about the Titanic. Exactly on the date that it sank. Strange is not the word for it! I haven't thought or seen anything about the Titanic for who knows how long, so there was nothing to trigger this dream. I've always been somehow supernaturally drawn to anything related to the Titanic, but never ever had any dreams about it. I've considered a couple of completely unscientific theories for this unusual attraction. A previous life was more or less ruled out, but genetic memory seemed to be a strong possibility. Genetic memory is information stored in your genetic makeup and is passed down the bloodline. The theory has it that certain events of a tragic nature are imprinted on your genetic code. You can't directly mentally access this code, but your unconscious mind, perhaps via unknown strong attractions to certain events, or especially terrible events can be felt or dreamed. Kinda like the deja vu feeling of having been someplace before, knowing what's around the corner before you get there, yet you have never been there before. These faint deja vu moments can include ever so faint recollections of not only places, but sounds, smells, and overwhelming feelings related to an historic event. Yeah...strange I know. But in the dream, it's no longer faint feelings, it's vividly real in every detail. Physically and emotionally distributing and exhausting.
So that's my strange occurrence , too strange to simply let slip away without writing about it. So is this the product of my imagination of something more? I think it's something more that can not be rationally explained away... for whatever reason.
